Guilty. Lately, I’ve felt guilty. Guilty if I’m not working hard enough when I’m alone. Guilty if I’m working when my husband is home. Guilty that I’m tired at work because I was up late working or talking with my husband after he arrived home from a late shift. Guilty that I haven’t been able to be the wife, sister or friend that I want to be. I’ve felt stretched thin, paper thin.
I know this is a common feeling for a lot of people, particularly people with their own business. But for me this was new. I’ve always been such a rock star at doing it all.
I knew something has to give. But what? My job working for a nonprofit I believe in? The business that I’ve been building for the past three years? The dream opportunity in the wedding industry that I’ve been working on since October?
This is my life; these are the things that I love doing. It’s a strange realization to know that no matter how hard you try, you just can’t do it all and do your best. I know how good my best can be, and this isn’t it. Deciding what to change is scary. But I’ve decided.
I’m leaving my job at the nonprofit to focus my efforts on growing Hello Cupcake and expanding my role at A Savvy Event as the Blog Editor and Creative Director to now take on wedding planning for other couples.
I’m excited to start this new chapter and unleash the creative fire that has been building up inside of me. My life is about to change.